After years of struggling with gambling, I learned the only way to win is to never play the game at all.
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Boycott
Boycott
As a child I don’t remember questioning the authority of my teachers, I loved school and remember no run-ins there.
My parents were easy-going and so neither do I remember much contention at home, although as a teenager I had the usual adolescent battles with my mother, and remember storming out of the house during heated arguments. However what the fights were about I can barely recall, although I remember once desperately wanting a Loden coat that all my friends seemed to have. But my parents, usually indulgent, adamantly refused to buy it for me as it was imported from Germany and in those post-war years they insisted on boycotting all German goods.
And later there were some issues involving their disapproval of a few guys I dated, and of other youthful decisions I had made. But otherwise I don’t remember seriously questioning parental authority.
Then while working as a high school librarian there were few issues that brought me in conflict with the school administration, although when my teachers’ union voted to strike I marched on the picket line. And I joined the American Library Association and took outspoken stands on censorship and book banning. And in my community I sat on a local civic board that fought the city on budgetary and environmental issues.
But in my professional and social circles I was an outlier who was generally accepting of the status quo and unapologetically apolitical – a strange conundrum since I’d grown up in a passionately political family.
And for years I remained stubbornly apolitical until I could bury my head in the sand no longer. (See Good Girl and Getting Woke)
And with that awakening I realized how admirable was my parents’ moral stance in boycotting German goods, a lesson more valuable than a Loden coat.
– Dana Susan Lehrman
Anti-authoritarianism
Anti-Authoritarianism
My German-born father was rather strict and accustomed to getting his own way. When I turned 14 and was about to graduate from junior high he wanted to send me to boarding school in Switzerland. I refused, not wanting to leave my friends and family.
“It’s like the army,” he retorted, “and I’m the general and you’re the private.”
“Then I’m going AWOL.” I said.
That September I enrolled at Forest Hills High, my local neighborhood school.
The writer with unnamed Retro admin
– Danny L, guest writer
In Flannel Robes
(Since the age of 11, all I valued in life was love, all I cared about was
finding my soulmate, my own true love – everything else was secondary)
All my life I wanted to know myself.
Place the answers inside a silver wand,
then if black rain ran over me
I could wave it to an infinite world.
There were wind children in my dream
who stood on the tops of lopsided hills,
at times all their innocence
could sway the pain from my soul.
You were there of course
in flannel robes beneath the sky.
Each day you’d hold my trembling body
to be still against the rain.
At night I hid from you
afraid to touch the curls around your face,
afraid to look into your eyes
and see the reflection of my age.
I was young for you,
so I needed gypsy laughter with twilight ‘round my mind,
I needed golden rings to blaze across my life,
and all the hopes of my poor dreams to scare me.
I needed to know what not to do to meet you –
to step into the night and have you hold me,
to let the dream fall to its death beneath my feet.