When my son turned thirteen back in 1984, we bought him an Apple IIc computer. I was both in awe of this machine and afraid of its presence in our home. It resided in the family room where I could keep a close eye on its influence on my son. It required a floppy disk to operate and emitted strange beeps and grinding sounds as greenish words flashed on the screen. My son adapted to it quickly. I watched from a distance, amazed by his mastery of this machine. Did I dare to try?
Disaster struck. My thesis had vanished. The computer had eaten it and refused to spit it out.
At the time, I had returned to graduate school to earn a Master’s degree in early childhood education. That meant I had to write papers. For a hunt and peck typist prone to spelling errors, that meant a lot of white-out and retyping. After closely observing my son, sometime in early 1985 I decided to use the computer to write my Master’s thesis. Wow. This was great. I got up every morning at 5:00 a.m. to work on it before my son and his younger sisters got up for school. But when I decided to print out the paper (remember those printers that used fan-folded paper with holes on the sides?) disaster struck. My thesis had vanished. The computer had eaten it and refused to spit it out.
Convinced it was in there somewhere, I packed up the computer and took it back to the local store where I had purchased it. This was the era before Apple Stores with Genius Bars, but surely the man who sold me this machine could find my thesis in there somewhere. I asked him to retrieve it from inside the computer. Please make my thesis open. When the owner asked me for my backup floppy disk, I had no idea what he was talking about. What’s a backup?
Once I realized the thesis was gone, I’ll confess that I cried. For a mother of three kids ages thirteen, ten, and seven who had just transitioned from teaching preschool to directing the program, while also finishing a Master’s degree at night, this was simply too much to bear. All of those hours writing at the crack of dawn had vanished somewhere into the bowels of that Apple IIc. Why had I trusted this ridiculous machine?
Thankfully, writing was a totally different process back in 1985. Research was done via actual books and articles, so my notes were still available. I also had a written outline. Painful as it was, I could reconstruct the document from these sources. Plus, my memory was much better 33 years ago, so once I started to rewrite it, much of what I had written the first time came back to me. In fact, I felt the second version was better than the first.
You would think that my first disastrous encounter with a computer would have sent me back to my old electric typewriter. Instead, I was more determined than ever to master the machine. There was something magical about being able to edit my work with ease. While my initial Apple experience was a bad first date, nevertheless, I persisted. Not only did I come to love that computer, but it was the start of a relationship that continues to this day.
Arthritis has made writing by hand a physical challenge. Yet as I compose this post about my disastrous beginning with computers on my beloved Mac, I realize how important word processing has been to unlocking my love of writing.
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Yup, we’ve all been there, but perhaps not to this degree! I love that you were convinced that the text was “in there somewhere,” which is true to some degree today but not then. I had to recreate something when the blue screen of death wiped it, and I then tried to close the file after dutifully “saving changes” which was of course the deletion of the whole file. Lesson learned.
I have also encountered the blue screen of death. Computers are a blessing most of the time, but folks like me have no idea how they really work.
This story transported me instantly to the days when computers could crash for no reason (not that they can’t now), floppy disks were cumbersome and unreliable, and modems were maddeningly slow. I think we boomers were also misled by our early exposure to those big whirring computers on TV (like that Univac on some game show), which were presented as the ultimate source of wisdom. Glad you were able to reconstruct your thesis and survive to compute another day!
The important thing was to move on with determination, despite the frustration. My relationship with technology is best summed up by “nevertheless, she persisted.”
Laurie, this is a wonderful story! As John and Patti have both said, it took me right back to those days. Computers were so mysterious, and it was hard to believe that something you had put in there could disappear, never to be found. I like the idea of the Apple store guy opening up the computer and pulling it out – which of course he couldn’t do. I remember trying to write a letter on a computer for the first time, in about 1990, and being mystified about why it seemed so much more complicated than just using a typewriter.
My father learned to do many things on a computer at a very old age, but he never used word processing because he couldn’t set the margins. Thanks for your feedback.